Wednesday, October 18, 2006
{ 6:00 AM }
these few days of debriefs are killing me. i hate them..why cant we just do the papers without knowing the results..i dont want them! today's paper were all suxy. like the first paper was ss..and i failed horrible. like lalala~stupid isnt it. and geog. guess how much i got? 19. so overall, i failed combine humanities badly. and it seriously pulled my overall down. i'm on the verge of failing. and i dont want to fail! after that was physics. i finally passed, but its lousy though. i cant stand it. because after all these hard work, this is all i get. maybe the hardwork i put is in wrong chapters..i should put more emphasise on the back chapters..i should go knock my head and die. really felt like itsthe end of my life. there's no way out. the future looks bleak. i cant see that light..i borke down. finally. it isnt easy taking it in your own hands..all those sorrows. haiz..someone..save me please..show me that there's still hope. life isnt ending. i need someone to motivate me..get me going..haiz. hard work doesnt pay..but i think i'll work twice as hard..if not, thrice as hard, if not four times as hard..i want to succed..